(10:33 PM RY) tidooor.. tidooor.. masih online ajah jam segini
(ZOE) gak bisa tidur aku ry dari kemarin…:(
(10:34 PM RY) eh, kenapa zooooe?
(ZOE) hehe
(10:35 PM ZOE) udah make a wish kemarin ?
(10:36 PM RY) kemarin? koq ga hari ini?
(ZOE) hahah.. kan.. sampai short memory ku hang nih..
(10:37 PM ZOE) gak sleep sih dari kemarin…
(RY) ish ish ish
(ZOE) tadi jam 00.00
(RY) bahaya ituh
(10:38 PM ZOE) iya
(RY) owh.. sdh dalam hati.. sambil melayang tidurrr..
(ZOE) hm…
(RY) *hadeuhhh bahasanyaaa.. lebaaaay laaa..
(ZOE) alay *ryane alay..
(RY) asal bukan ryane lebaay malang macam-macam pilem piramlii
(10:39 PM ZOE) Ryane lebay Batam dong.. bukan malang..
(10:40 PM RY) asal zooooe senang tak pa laaa.. ryane mengalah hari ini spy zooooe bisa tiduuur
(10:41 PM RY) skrg ngaku knp tak bisa tidur..
(10:43 PM ZOE) banyak ’service yg jalan di kepalaku ry… gak bisa di shut down satu per satu..
(RY) wooh.. mayday mayday
(10:44 PM RY) biasanya elu paling balance kan zoooo
(ZOE) gak tau nih, minta upgrade versi yg lebih stable kali ya.. ahh.. systemku nyaris hang…
(10:46 PM RY) system stable?? tolong kupipes Ar-Ruum : 21 ke systemnya yaa zoooo..
(10:47 PM RY) copy-paste-install
(10:48 PM ZOE) patching ya..
(10:49 PM ZOE) |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||95%complete
(10:50 PM RY) do not patching.. itu sementara.. besok nambal lagi refresh.. even itu re-install atau install baru
(10:51 PM ZOE) masih belum ngerti…
(RY) hihihihi
(10:52 PM RY) hadeuuhh ngentuksss
(ZOE) |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||98% patching error…
(10:53 PM RY) hehehehe sholat.. sholat..
(ZOE) udah
(RY) kurang khusyu?
(ZOE) kenapa dirimu nyaranin instal paket yg itu ry..?
(RY) sampe masih erorr
(10:54 PM RY) re-install atau new install?? itu pilihan.. mungkin, itu bisa jadi obat tidur
(ZOE) mungkin harus new install sepertinya..
(10:55 PM ZOE) reinstall gak bisa lagi kyknya, udah terlalu banyak recordnya di registry..
(10:56 PM ZOE) kalau kudeletin satu persatu malah registry error pulak nanti jadinya…*matilah
(RY) kalau sudah yakin, new install akan baik untuk kemudian hari, yaa maju jalan.. masukkan DVDnya, new install lah..
(10:57 PM ZOE) aku blm punya DVD yg cocok
(RY) bikin record baru dong.. tanpa perlu delete record lama.. nah, klo belom nemu DVD yang cocok.. itu masalah mata.. 2 mata.. 1 mata.. 2 mata tampak luar.. 1 mata tampak dalam..
(10:58 PM ZOE) wah.. I know..
(10:59 PM RY) space record lama, di press padat, defrag yaaa namanya??
(ZOE) lompresi.. *kompresi
(RY) nah.. ya ya itu, maksudnya.. new record mulai dibikin deh..
(11:00 PM RY) klo udah ahli, gampang sebenernya ya?? klo awam kyk gue, susah
(ZOE) hehe…mungkin aku juga blm ahli Ry..
(11:01 PM RY) ya iyalaaahh klo ga mahhh.. lu udah tidur nyenyak dari kemaren.. ish ish ish
(ZOE) jadi record lama kita delete aja nih..?
(11:02 PM RY) dibilang jgn delete.. tapi kompresi
(ZOE) ntar kucoba…
(RY) jadi padat.. biasanya klo padat, sedikit² tumpah keluar.. pelan tapi pasti, berkurang jumlahnya..
(11:03 PM RY) tapi semuanya, harus yakin dulu..
(ZOE) tar -zxvf record1.tar.gz /root/record1
(RY) harus inget juga, ganti system tak pernah mudah loh.. harus belajar mengoperasikannya satu demi satu..
(ZOE) Error: service already running……..
(11:04 PM ZOE) beuh…
(RY) berarti tidak? atau belum yakin kan.. dengan rencana new install
(ZOE) iya juga mungkin
(11:05 PM RY) go get your first driver then, re-install!!! hurry! before the system bener² shutdown..
(11:07 PM ZOE) iya, ntar malam aku coba.. ngambilnya butuh ketenangan Ry, 1/3 malam lebih bersih… sekarang msh byk file2 sampah lainnya..
(RY) yang sampah, delete ke recycle bin.. jgn ragu..
(11:08 PM RY) recycle bin nya juga di empty-in dari sampah², yaa biar system jalannya ringan, ga tersendat².. eh eh anyway, we both are good in a story telling about human through software computer yaww?? hahahahaha
(11:09 PM ZOE) huehue… gak tau deh ntah nyambung ntah enggak,tapi koq dari tadi nyambung aja kyknya….
(RY) setujuuu.. perasan gue juga nyambung aja..
(11:10 PM ZOE) what do you think..?
(RY) jgn² penemu komputer even soft & hard, inspirasinya justru manusia ya?? hahahaha ehh ohh is it??
(11:11 PM ZOE) system komputer itu mirip banget dgn tubuh kita Ry.. coba pelajari lebih detail.. konsepnya nyaris sama…
(RY) so, i think doctor and IT have something in common
(ZOE) huehue…
(RY) nice

Apa yang mungkin terlintas dalam benak bayi berumur 9 bulan, kiranya? Saya bersumpah, kalau saya tidak tahu, meski saya atau kita semua pernah menjadi seperti dirinya dan sudah tidak ingat apapun yang sempat kita pikirkan saat itu. Dan lagi, saya pun tidak mampu menerkanya, mengingat belum pernah ada seorang bayi pun lahir dari rahim saya, yang memungkinkan saya menjadi seorang Ibu untuk kemudian membesarkannya dari hari ke hari sehingga mampu membaca isyarat apapun yang ingin disampaikan seorang anak kepada Ibunya.. Mungkin belum.. Bukan tidak ada loh yaaa.. Tapi heiii STOP! ini jelas bukan tentang saya, ini tentang bayi kembar laki-laki berumur 9 bulan, tentu saja; yang bahkan nama mereka pun saya tidak tahu. Lantas??

Seorang teman-dekat mengatakan kepada saya; hanya sekilas dan seadanya kalimat, yang memang pada saat-saat biasa, tidak akan membawa pengaruh apa-apa untuk saya. Dia hanya bilang “ada nih di deket tempat tinggal gue, bayi kembar laki-laki umur 9 bulan, minumnya koq ya teh manis”. Lah emang maunya kaliii? atau kenapa yaa? namun dalam benak saya, pastilah terjadi sesuatu dengan orang-tuanya.. karena jelas, bayi atau dalam bahasa latin disebut Infant -memiliki arti unable to speak, jadi tentu saja, mana bisa dia bilang tidak mau atau tidak suka saat diberi minum teh manis yang (sejauh pengetahuan saya) jelas akan membawa pengaruh negatif pada anak-anak, apalagi pada bayi.. Dari segi gizi dan kesehatan, silahkan baca penjelasannya disini.

Sekarang lihat dari segi hati dan perasaan. Saya tidak bisa tidak kepikiran, bila sudah menyangkut segala sesuatu tentang anak-anak. Apalagi, bayi. Namun, hingga kini, saya cukup tahu diri bahwa saya memang belum mampu melakukan hal besar untuk anak-anak di seluruh dunia. Akan tetapi untuk satu hal kecil saja,  mengapa saya tidak bisa?! harus bisa!! maka pada kasus si kembar ini -yang ternyata memang, himpitan ekonomi memaksa orang-tuanya memberikan teh manis kepada bayinya, membuat saya tidak perlu berfikir dua kali untuk mengiyakan rencana teman saya itu (selain memang kebetulan ada rejeki lebih bulan ini).

Susu, yang terbaik hingga saat ini adalah ASI (Air Susu Ibu) yang diberikan secara ekslusif kepada bayinya; yang menurut pendapat saya merupakan hak prerogatif seorang bayi. Mutlak. Tidak dapat diganggu gugat. Namun dalam hal apabila terjadi ketidak-mampuan seorang Ibu memberikan Air Susunya, itu adalah persoalan lain. Sama seperti kasus si kembar. Ibunya tidak bisa memberikan Air Susunya kepada mereka, karena si Ibu -well, sedang hamil 7 bulan (WHAT?!) tidak apa-apa, silahkan kaget! karena seperti itu juga lah reaksi saya pada awalnya dan bersiaplah untuk kaget yang kedua kalinya karena menurut perkiraan bayi yang dikandungnya saat ini pun, kembar. Perempuan

Tidak ada yang salah dengan memiliki anak, hanya saja kalau dipikir-pikir ulang, mestinya tiap-tiap pasangan suami-istri, harus mempersiapkan diri dengan kehadiran anak-anaknya. Segala sesuatu harus dipertimbangkan, hal ini terkait juga dengan jumlah anak yang akan mereka miliki serta kemampuan mereka membesarkannya. Saya tidak tahu pasti bagaimana  cara paling baik melakukannya (yang dengan alasan masuk akal) akan saya katakan “yaa harap maklum, saya belum menikah nih”, tetapi setidaknya saya sudah merancang kehidupan saya kelak bila saya (akhirnya) menemukan jodoh saya Heiii.. Heii.. sekali lagi, ini bukan tentang saya, ini masih tentang si kembar 9 bulan

Nah, kini jadilah saya dengan niat paaaaling sederhana, hanya supaya si kembar tidak lagi diberi teh manis oleh Ibunya, saya sudah menenteng satu kantong plastik berisi 2 box Susu SGM-2 900 gr serta 4 box Biskuit Bayi, hmm rasanya cukup untuk bulan ini.  Lalu, bulan depan? mudah-mudahan bukan cuma saya dan teman dekat saya itu, yang sudah kepikiran melakukan sesuatu untuk si kembar, melainkan orang lain yang kebetulan membaca artikel blog saya ini, lantas mencari-cari saya untuk menitipkan Susu buat si kembar

Hmmm ada kah? kabari saja, saya selalu ada disini koq..

achro®

nama pacar baru sayah ituh.. bukan pengganti bagi darky®; karena darky® memiliki keunikannya tersendiri.. yang, sungguh.. saya pun tidak mampu melepaskannya..

Namun, mudah-mudahan dengan pacar baru saya nantinya akan mampu merekam banyak kisah sebanyak lembaran rupiah yang harus ditabung demi dia.. pun sejauh perjalanan hidup yang saya tempuh untuk mengenal seluk-beluk dirinya.. Dan kemudian dari serangkaian proses itu, mampu menjadikan saya seseorang dengan talenta lain, selain apa yang telah saya miliki.. itu saja, karena untuk saya hidup selalu merupakan proses belajar..

i admit that it was really well-pleasing by spending time on our idly to deep conversations and experiences the breathless attention of yours; but, before those are fall too far and too deep, then ruining us upside down..

we better just got here.

*if someday you strayed away here, and read this.. well you knew it, i’ve told you before..

minum kupi, kalo kebanyakan biasanya bisa bikin jantung sayah dagdigdug ga karuan tapi minum kupi ditemani mug dagdigdugdotcom bawaan paman tyo sembari menulis postingan blog? aaahh  rasanya saya rela deh seharian ber-dagdigdug-ria jantungnya wakakakakak..

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair..
I hate the way you drive my car..
I hate it when you stare..
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind..
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme..
I hate it, I hate the way you’re always right..
I hate it when you lie..
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry..
I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call..
But mostly..
I hate the way I don’t hate you..
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all..

*dikutip dari film berjudul sama*

iblis ihhh..

since you’re not here anymore, the world seems not quite interesting *sigh* time goin’ so slow mo.. really in slow motion.. no one to ask when i got confuse into such a thing called damned-love.. no one to blame when i got problem here and there.. no one to go-along-with to do wicked things and of course no one to cheer when i got some good news.. also no one to share when i  found kitten from some place.. aaaa.. you’re really mean someone deh blis.. well, we’re fit our weird anyway

blis Oooo blis,

maybe you’re now not around, but your voice sometimes haunted me, you know hell yeah! we do talking based on our mood by using some technology as our part to keep in touch.. well, we do discuss about this and that, and some how it is about something important to our life.. but in the other side, we just chit chat about that not-so-important-gorgeous-hot-hunks! hehehe yeyeyeye.. we do sometimes acting like an abegeh or actually we are  still?? aaaaa.. don’t care..

aaahh yaaa blis..

one more thing.. i do can not see you lately nor dreaming about you. yeah right! who do you think you are, then carve a way through my dreams heh?!.. am alone on my own. even yes, some angels do come tempting me but i do feel imbalance without you, an iblis of the world. so, if you dropping me by some day, i will tide you up so you won’t go anywhere else huahahaha.. then we could go watching midnight movies or enjoying our big-bunch of bakso langganan and pisang-goreng-keju-susu langganan

deal?

owh no.. i think am making a deal with an iblis, well i might be losing my soul then

miss you, blis!

finally i got a brand new toy

it can dance, while i move it so. it can make anything that i can imagine through amazing design software, such as photoshop, paint or corel (and what so ever!). well, since am so in love with design, i try to be more active into it. from some friend i learn many things; include learning how to use this toy..

I was hoping that i could buy tablet and cordless pen from wacoom, called as bamboo fun, but since the Singapore dollar to Rupiah did not matched my pocket, am looking for another option. so, here i am, with my brand new dancing-pen on the tablet-floor from Genius named G-Pen 450 with an active area 4″ x 5,5″. I buy it for IDR 515.000,- it was bought at FixFit Solution which is near to TOP 100 Penuin.. ahh yaaa compare to SGD 189 for Wacoom Bamboo Fun.. owwhh tidaaaakkk!! jauuuhhh beneeerr dahhh harganya hehehe memang sihh you can buy wacoom but you can’t buy technology so, this is enough as technology..

well, my genius tablet and cordless pen are pretty good for a beginner like me. some pals said that i may use this Genius tablet and cordless pen first before i become an advance then use bamboo fun i do hope so.. but, for now.. am really enjoying my fun-time with dancing-pen on the tablet-floor so much hehehe

i’m starting to worry about me, myself, my health and also my big fat great body one day i started to feel overflowing while i do simple things. this is not good and this is getting worst, if i keep ‘amnesia’ about my health. so, from one and a half month ago, i start my new project. yes, project of losing weight. so much, to be thrown away from this big fat great body

i thank to my dearest friend -mondy; who had keeping a faith that we could! if we try. in my case, i can be more healthy than today if i try to live healthy. i do need more exercises than anyone else. if you’ve saw me, you will say so so this is me, day to day, enjoying my times at one of good Fitness Club here in Batam.

there are many instruments of fitness there. i choose to do treadmill for 30 minutes (and will be lifted the time and speed more and more everyday), play around with dumbbell owh sometimes i do dance combine with gymnastics used to called as aerobic hihihihi then after all that things has done; i go swimming.. this is my favorite part.. husss bukan gaya batu tau’! kalo gaya batu mah dipake di jaman batu aja kalii.. ga musimm well, i learn many swim-style, but i’m good in backstroke-style owh we have our favorite innovation of swim-style hihihi doggy-style huaaaahahaha did you ever see any dog swimming? yeah like that.. we called it susi-style cos my friend told us that she has a dog named susi at her office (upss, sorry susi)

i really enjoying my times doing sport lately, well it was not me at all at first time -i admit that secara yaaa gue ini paling males olah-raga, tadinyaaa but people change.. changes for the best intentions, why not?? am i right??

beside sport, i do diet.. it doesn’t mean when you’re on diet you’re not eat. if you do so, hahaha it will kill you. diet means that you’ve to manage your food -i got this advice from my nice personal trainer he says that i have to eat but must a healthy food. do not eat too much rice, so i eat rice for only 5 tablespoons a day, thats more than enough for me; but i have to take so much fiber from vegetables (yewww i hate veggies anyway but i have no other choice than eat it, so i eat it together with shrimp-crackers hahaha) and also fruits.. some people says an apple a day will keep the doctor away.. so apples are my bestfriend

i can’t stay away from coffee, though.. well i still may choose low fat coffee then take it as my breakfast; together with whole-grain bread or (again) combine with an apple.. then after all to make this diet more perfect, i skip my dinner yihaaaa!! this is the hardest thing to do, by the way.. but i keep promising myself to toe the line in this project

after doing so many exercises and stick to the diet-formula, for one and a half month, i deserves rewards.. i got 6 cm away from my hip (i wasn’t know it.. well i feel it but i’m too afraid to measure it until my tailor read a meter to me hahahaha) and losing weight 6 kg.. well.. well.. if you haven’t seen any changes on me; it means that there are still too much to be thrown away from this big fat great body! and this project isn’t a magic at all..

so all i wanted to do; just enjoy the process and be grateful for the result, that’s all.. wish me luck, pals

it was blackout that day. and at 3 am, right after the light goin’ down; he calls. he sound panic. i heard his voice clearly, he say ‘please’.. then i’m about worrying him, anyway. something bad could happen to him. so, when he said that he will come to my place, i said ‘ok, be here’..

it was 3 am. he –the man that i used to call as my dearest friend is standing there, right in front of my house. i see him in darkness all around. i ask him ‘what happen? anything bad? you sound not feel good’.. he said ‘nothing, he just feel unwell’.. then i’ll keep asking him ’so, why are you here?’.. from what i remember, he just ’ssssttt me’ silent please.. owh owkey, i agree with him, we should be in silent anyway, again, it’s 3 am.

he ask me to hold his hand. i did. i thought that when i hold his hand; i might be giving him strength for whatever cases happen to him today. and then he started lay his head to my shoulder, but i’m getting uncomfortable by this. the only man that ever laying to my shoulder is my-manik-manik.. i said, sorry dear i’m not comfortable with this anyway.. sorry.. but he keep his head on my shoulder, so i move to another side.. he chase me.. hold my hands tight.. ughhh, this is getting weird though..

i say him ‘go home!, if you do things like this, go home!’ when he started saying words, i smelled something. unique scent. he’s drunk, i guess. so this is the reason why he’s out of his mind in this (really) early in the morning, at 3 am.

he’s trying to hug me, still need a shoulder to lay on. i can feel his breath through my neck. he seems so weak. well (never forget) too much alcohol making you weak than you’ve ever know. alcohol will take a control on you.

at the end, he wave his white-flag. he’s finally surrender. even that he still asking me a question.. ‘may i kiss your forehead? for friendship!’.. sorry dear, i can’t. just don’t. so he choose to ran his hands through my hair. that’s enough, i said.

hhhhh..
i have many ‘guy’ friends around me, but no one ever treat me like this before. made me both amaze and anger in the same time. i still don’t have any other clue except he’s might be too drunk. hahaha i am not his kind a girl.. maybe this is kind a joke, he making a joke on me, right dear???

but anyhow, it will change nothing! he still my friend, the dearest one.  i’m not gonna tell who is the man at 3 am, here i will let this be our secret.