iblis ihhh..

since you’re not here anymore, the world seems not quite interesting *sigh* time goin’ so slow mo.. really in slow motion.. no one to ask when i got confuse into such a thing called damned-love.. no one to blame when i got problem here and there.. no one to go-along-with to do wicked things and of course no one to cheer when i got some good news.. also no one to share when i  found kitten from some place.. aaaa.. you’re really mean someone deh blis.. well, we’re fit our weird anyway

blis Oooo blis,

maybe you’re now not around, but your voice sometimes haunted me, you know hell yeah! we do talking based on our mood by using some technology as our part to keep in touch.. well, we do discuss about this and that, and some how it is about something important to our life.. but in the other side, we just chit chat about that not-so-important-gorgeous-hot-hunks! hehehe yeyeyeye.. we do sometimes acting like an abegeh or actually we are  still?? aaaaa.. don’t care..

aaahh yaaa blis..

one more thing.. i do can not see you lately nor dreaming about you. yeah right! who do you think you are, then carve a way through my dreams heh?!.. am alone on my own. even yes, some angels do come tempting me but i do feel imbalance without you, an iblis of the world. so, if you dropping me by some day, i will tide you up so you won’t go anywhere else huahahaha.. then we could go watching midnight movies or enjoying our big-bunch of bakso langganan and pisang-goreng-keju-susu langganan

deal?

owh no.. i think am making a deal with an iblis, well i might be losing my soul then

miss you, blis!

finally i got a brand new toy

it can dance, while i move it so. it can make anything that i can imagine through amazing design software, such as photoshop, paint or corel (and what so ever!). well, since am so in love with design, i try to be more active into it. from some friend i learn many things; include learning how to use this toy..

I was hoping that i could buy tablet and cordless pen from wacoom, called as bamboo fun, but since the Singapore dollar to Rupiah did not matched my pocket, am looking for another option. so, here i am, with my brand new dancing-pen on the tablet-floor from Genius named G-Pen 450 with an active area 4″ x 5,5″. I buy it for IDR 515.000,- it was bought at FixFit Solution which is near to TOP 100 Penuin.. ahh yaaa compare to SGD 189 for Wacoom Bamboo Fun.. owwhh tidaaaakkk!! jauuuhhh beneeerr dahhh harganya hehehe memang sihh you can buy wacoom but you can’t buy technology so, this is enough as technology..

well, my genius tablet and cordless pen are pretty good for a beginner like me. some pals said that i may use this Genius tablet and cordless pen first before i become an advance then use bamboo fun i do hope so.. but, for now.. am really enjoying my fun-time with dancing-pen on the tablet-floor so much hehehe

i’m starting to worry about me, myself, my health and also my big fat great body one day i started to feel overflowing while i do simple things. this is not good and this is getting worst, if i keep ‘amnesia’ about my health. so, from one and a half month ago, i start my new project. yes, project of losing weight. so much, to be thrown away from this big fat great body

i thank to my dearest friend -mondy; who had keeping a faith that we could! if we try. in my case, i can be more healthy than today if i try to live healthy. i do need more exercises than anyone else. if you’ve saw me, you will say so so this is me, day to day, enjoying my times at one of good Fitness Club here in Batam.

there are many instruments of fitness there. i choose to do treadmill for 30 minutes (and will be lifted the time and speed more and more everyday), play around with dumbbell owh sometimes i do dance combine with gymnastics used to called as aerobic hihihihi then after all that things has done; i go swimming.. this is my favorite part.. husss bukan gaya batu tau’! kalo gaya batu mah dipake di jaman batu aja kalii.. ga musimm well, i learn many swim-style, but i’m good in backstroke-style owh we have our favorite innovation of swim-style hihihi doggy-style huaaaahahaha did you ever see any dog swimming? yeah like that.. we called it susi-style cos my friend told us that she has a dog named susi at her office (upss, sorry susi)

i really enjoying my times doing sport lately, well it was not me at all at first time -i admit that secara yaaa gue ini paling males olah-raga, tadinyaaa but people change.. changes for the best intentions, why not?? am i right??

beside sport, i do diet.. it doesn’t mean when you’re on diet you’re not eat. if you do so, hahaha it will kill you. diet means that you’ve to manage your food -i got this advice from my nice personal trainer he says that i have to eat but must a healthy food. do not eat too much rice, so i eat rice for only 5 tablespoons a day, thats more than enough for me; but i have to take so much fiber from vegetables (yewww i hate veggies anyway but i have no other choice than eat it, so i eat it together with shrimp-crackers hahaha) and also fruits.. some people says an apple a day will keep the doctor away.. so apples are my bestfriend

i can’t stay away from coffee, though.. well i still may choose low fat coffee then take it as my breakfast; together with whole-grain bread or (again) combine with an apple.. then after all to make this diet more perfect, i skip my dinner yihaaaa!! this is the hardest thing to do, by the way.. but i keep promising myself to toe the line in this project

after doing so many exercises and stick to the diet-formula, for one and a half month, i deserves rewards.. i got 6 cm away from my hip (i wasn’t know it.. well i feel it but i’m too afraid to measure it until my tailor read a meter to me hahahaha) and losing weight 6 kg.. well.. well.. if you haven’t seen any changes on me; it means that there are still too much to be thrown away from this big fat great body! and this project isn’t a magic at all..

so all i wanted to do; just enjoy the process and be grateful for the result, that’s all.. wish me luck, pals

it was blackout that day. and at 3 am, right after the light goin’ down; he calls. he sound panic. i heard his voice clearly, he say ‘please’.. then i’m about worrying him, anyway. something bad could happen to him. so, when he said that he will come to my place, i said ‘ok, be here’..

it was 3 am. he –the man that i used to call as my dearest friend is standing there, right in front of my house. i see him in darkness all around. i ask him ‘what happen? anything bad? you sound not feel good’.. he said ‘nothing, he just feel unwell’.. then i’ll keep asking him ’so, why are you here?’.. from what i remember, he just ’ssssttt me’ silent please.. owh owkey, i agree with him, we should be in silent anyway, again, it’s 3 am.

he ask me to hold his hand. i did. i thought that when i hold his hand; i might be giving him strength for whatever cases happen to him today. and then he started lay his head to my shoulder, but i’m getting uncomfortable by this. the only man that ever laying to my shoulder is my-manik-manik.. i said, sorry dear i’m not comfortable with this anyway.. sorry.. but he keep his head on my shoulder, so i move to another side.. he chase me.. hold my hands tight.. ughhh, this is getting weird though..

i say him ‘go home!, if you do things like this, go home!’ when he started saying words, i smelled something. unique scent. he’s drunk, i guess. so this is the reason why he’s out of his mind in this (really) early in the morning, at 3 am.

he’s trying to hug me, still need a shoulder to lay on. i can feel his breath through my neck. he seems so weak. well (never forget) too much alcohol making you weak than you’ve ever know. alcohol will take a control on you.

at the end, he wave his white-flag. he’s finally surrender. even that he still asking me a question.. ‘may i kiss your forehead? for friendship!’.. sorry dear, i can’t. just don’t. so he choose to ran his hands through my hair. that’s enough, i said.

hhhhh..
i have many ‘guy’ friends around me, but no one ever treat me like this before. made me both amaze and anger in the same time. i still don’t have any other clue except he’s might be too drunk. hahaha i am not his kind a girl.. maybe this is kind a joke, he making a joke on me, right dear???

but anyhow, it will change nothing! he still my friend, the dearest one.  i’m not gonna tell who is the man at 3 am, here i will let this be our secret.

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